I wish you could understand how important your friendship is to me. I wish I could tell you how much I think and worry about you. I wish you could see that talking to you makes me so happy. I wish you could understand how much I enjoy being with you.

Your friendship has been very important to me. Probably one of the most important things in my life these past few months. But I really don't think it has been all that important to you. Your care is appreciated and means very much to me, but from the sounds of it, your actions of care appear more like obligations, rather than love or care. It seems I'm a part of your schedule now instead of a friend... just somebody to fit into the daily routine. Thus, the reason I want to back off is because your care for me has now become an obligation. I truly don't believe our friendship can work like this, and moreover, I don't think you need any more obligations... especially with your busy schedule.

I also don't think I have been a good friend to you all this time. I haven't been there for you at times, and I tend to bring a lot of pain into our friendship. More so than anything good.

Do I want to be your friend? Of course I do. I want to be there for you as much as possible, but your so busy with your other friends, your work, and your school, that it really seems like there's no place for me in your life except on MSN, and thats a position I really don't want to be in anymore. If I were to dissapear, I really don't think it would make an impact in your life.

Like I said earlier, I think I'm expecting too much from this friendship. It just isn't fair for me to do so. The best thing for me to do is to back off. If I continue to stick around, I'm just gonna cause you and myself more pain. And that's something I don't want to do.

However, don't ever say that I haven't been there for you, because I've tried my best. I've msg'ed you when I thought you were sad, I've called you when I thought you needed to talk, I've tried my best in cheering you up with fun and exciting gifts that I put a lot of thought into, I've given you bedtime stories, I've done a lot. So to say that I'm "suppose to be a friend that sticks around when you need me the most for support" is almost a slap in the face. I have offered up my care, but it seems like your too busy to take my offering hand. I've tried, I really have.

I really want this friendship to stay and strengthen. I don't think I've thought of somebody so much in my life. I really want to hold onto this, because it has brought me a lot of joy, but sometimes the best thing to do is to let it go.