So there are a couple of things that I have to talk about. First, the things of the past. Then, the present, and to finish off, the future.

In the past week, my life has jumped all over the place. Problems at work and church have spawned. At work, people have been leaving the company, and with Home Entertainment becoming unfamiliar territory, I have considered leaving as well. At church, people just don't seem to care. BAC, in which I once called my second home, is now nothing more than a place to be forgotten by those you knew long ago. I have become a desert island. To put it bluntly and without poetic concern, I have become isolated and ignored by the church community. This is not to say that I am not at fault. But due to unfortunate circumstances, I believe a fresh start, without concerning myself with any of this, is what I need. For that reason, I have decided to leave BAC and embark on a journey to find a new church.

In the past week, I was also able to go to my nieces first birthday. Following that, I went to a suprise party for a friend I knew in High School. At both parties, I really started to feel my age. Although they were fun, the time I spent at each gathering was an eye opening experience. I discovered that not only am I an uncle (Yes, it finally sunk in...), but also a mentor to those younger than me. Although these are common ideas, they never really have sunk in until this past weekend. Moreover, meeting up with some of my old high school teachers and friends revealed to me just how much I've grown up in two years.

In the present, I am missing Japan, Maria, and my old friends. To start things off, Japan is what I miss the most. The people, the food, the culture, the life. Travelling on my own was a life changing experience - an adventure - and I guess that's what I miss the most. The life unlived and unknown. I also miss my Cousin Maria. Even though we only spent three weeks together, the time we did share made me come to see her as a sister. She took care of me, guided me, helped me when I asked, argued with me, talked with me - everything a sister would do with you. I also miss my old friends. Stan is off working and schooling, Wes is out partying, Brian is spending his time with his new girlfriend, and Allison is busy at work and school. Part of my summer was meant to spend time with friends, but it has become a four month trek in which I have travelled and journeyed alone.

I'm also missing another, who left their home to live far away. My heart and prayers are still with them.

In the future, there are only a few things. First, I have to start registering for my courses. Getting ready to go back to school is something that is daunting, but also something I am looking forward to. I am also getting ready to find myself a new job with a new company.

Altogether, there have been many changes since I got back from Japan. I find myself in a whirlwind of a mess - filled with changes and problems. However, these things aren't necessarily bad. The way I see it, I am travelling, once again, on a journey to find myself. Whether or not I succeed in doing so, is to be answered.

I am not home, yet.